That Day That I Planned Dinner

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crochet, depression, hobbies, meal planning, sewing, yarn

Planning meals should be easy but for me lately, it has been a challenge. My brain has been on vacation for the past few months. Pretty much since I got let go from my job. I feel like I have just been floating in this sea of life and I can’t figure out how to get back on land. I guess most people would just get back to working and be fine but for me it was like this fog set in and I haven’t been able to get rid of it. I didn’t realize how it had been affecting me until my better half said he missed my smile. That just broke my heart because I didn’t notice the joy leaving me. I have worked almost all of my adult life and now I’d lost my identity as a hard-working woman. That isn’t my identity though. I’m so much more than that. It was a blessing though. We decided to move and being home has allowed me to facilitate the move and all the other things that come with it.

Then I had to pack my up my stuff and I couldn’t sew, and that is my happy place. That made the depression even worse. I guess it was depression. It’s okay to say I was depressed. It’s okay to say if you are depressed. It happens and it’s normal. Even though we are made to feel like it’s not. Writing and getting back to sewing have made it better. Thank the universe for hobbies!!!

Most of my stuff is still packed and I’m tired of re-buying everything I need so I found some cotton yarn and decided to crochet an easy washcloth for washing dishes. It’s in a hideous color and I have no idea why I bought it but it will do.

Hideous green yarn

I guess I missed feeling like I was putting something out into the world too. I feel like I am making something to share with the world when I crochet or sew. It’s what I will leave behind when I am gone.

Well, I am off to see if I can plan and then buy some meals for the next week or if my brain will shut down and I just sit here and crochet. Wish me luck!

Productive Quilting

Well, my house is still a mess but I’m fine with that. I did get a lot accomplished today and that is all that counts.

This is some of the mess I am working on. My cats are no help but they are cute so it’s okay.

I did start my grandson’s quilt today and that has been fun. I am glad to start sewing again. I had to get it set up in a corner of my small bedroom for now since I have nowhere else to sew. I don’t have much room and have to use my bed to lay everything out for sewing. This is what it looked like when I started. I have got almost all of it put together now. More pictures tomorrow.

Charm pack before it’s sewn together.

I have been doing a lot reading lately too. SInce we have moved there is not much to do because everything is packed. I don’t recommend reading a book called “Consensual Hex” by Amanda Harlowe. It was terrible and nonsensical. It received terrible reviews that I read after I read the book and hated it. Don’t make the same mistake. I started another book that has been good so far and that one is called “The Thursday Murder Club” by Richard Osman. This one is good and has some good humor in it. Not finished yet though so the ending could be a let down but hopefully not.

That is it for me today. Good night and see you tomorrow.

Feeling Homesick

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depression, fibromyalgia, moving

It’s been a month since we have moved. I was feeling a little homesick today so I decided to use Snapchat a little more to keep in touch with friends and family. It’s helping a little. I have been depressed but didn’t realize it when we got here. So I have been trying to get back to as normal as possible to help with that. Depression kind of sneaks up on you. I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia a few years ago and it makes normal things a little harder to get through since I also have to deal with constant pain as well.

Today was a good day though. I have a hard time with productivity since my brain decides to not work half the time, but today I finished my taxes, did some shopping and updated some address changes. Plus a little house cleaning was accomplished, although it still looks like a bomb went off. I did do actual cleaning though.

I have also been trying to be better about self care. That is very important for us as women. We tend to always help others but don’t do anything for ourselves and it adds more stress onto our already full plate. So I have been setting a date with myself each week to paint my nails and it is such a mood booster. I love it. What is your favorite thing to treat yourself to?

K.I.S.S. Method in Action

So many of us today seem like we head out to over-complicate things. I am also guilty of this but I try to remember what I learned in my Army days, keep it simple stupid (KISS). This has helped me tremendously over the years, especially on a professional level. I try to stick to just the basics while in the midst of my daily duties or else I spiral out of control into an abyss of over-thought and second-guessed business decisions. Why do I do this to myself you ask? Because I have have been taught that if I don’t over-think everything I will get sued or punched in the face as I leave my office because I have made some poor schmuck mad for some unknown reason that I have not thought long and hard enough on. Will this really happen? No. I have just been trained to think it might because other people are idiots. Why do I listen to these idiots? Because they were put in charge of me. No other reason. That reason is no longer good enough though. Hazah!

I took this picture! Who knew?

 

I took this picture with my new camera and I love it. I have discovered photography and I love it. Tomorrow, I am off to take pictures of my lovely daughter in the same light to see what it does. So excited.

The 100 day give away challenge

I read a book once called the 100 Thing Challenge.The man in the book gave away or sold all of his belongings except 100 things. I am going to something similar but I am going to give away one thing a day for 100 days. I have so much crap it’s ridiculous! So tomorrow I will post a picture of the item I am going to donate, sell, or give away. So if you want the item let me know and you can have it!. 

Sundays

I love my Sundays. I got to bake some yummy good scones and just putter around. I made gluten-free scones and they turned out very nice. It doesn’t have to be taste-free that is for sure. I would recommend trying it. I made mine with blueberries and red rasberries and some sugar sprinkled on top. They came out soft and go great with my coffee and jam. They don’t look too pretty but that doesn’t matter to me. I love them anyway!

Gluten-free Scones

These are my first gluten-free scones. So yummy and Mike even liked them.

To be or not to be?

Hmmm. To become a chef, or to not become a chef? I always found it ironic that my ex’s new wife went to school to become a pastry chef, which was my dream. If I do it now then I seem like I am competing. I’m not, but I don’t want them thinking that.

A co-worker of mine is always encouraging me to follow my heart and just do it. I think it’s time to just get off my a** and just do it. She is right. If I love it so much then I am going to have to work at it and put myself out there. Where to start? Anyone want to buy anything? lol

Welcome!

Well, I decided to put my insanity out there and let others enjoy! I don’t have  a specific theme, just stuff that goes on in my life and how it works out. I love to craft, cook, spend time with my hubby and kids, and read. I also enjoy politics (I’m a Republican), but I will try to keep that to a minimum. I just wanted a place for myself to share and let others see a piece of my madness.