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Planning meals should be easy but for me lately, it has been a challenge. My brain has been on vacation for the past few months. Pretty much since I got let go from my job. I feel like I have just been floating in this sea of life and I can’t figure out how to get back on land. I guess most people would just get back to working and be fine but for me it was like this fog set in and I haven’t been able to get rid of it. I didn’t realize how it had been affecting me until my better half said he missed my smile. That just broke my heart because I didn’t notice the joy leaving me. I have worked almost all of my adult life and now I’d lost my identity as a hard-working woman. That isn’t my identity though. I’m so much more than that. It was a blessing though. We decided to move and being home has allowed me to facilitate the move and all the other things that come with it.
Then I had to pack my up my stuff and I couldn’t sew, and that is my happy place. That made the depression even worse. I guess it was depression. It’s okay to say I was depressed. It’s okay to say if you are depressed. It happens and it’s normal. Even though we are made to feel like it’s not. Writing and getting back to sewing have made it better. Thank the universe for hobbies!!!
Most of my stuff is still packed and I’m tired of re-buying everything I need so I found some cotton yarn and decided to crochet an easy washcloth for washing dishes. It’s in a hideous color and I have no idea why I bought it but it will do.
I guess I missed feeling like I was putting something out into the world too. I feel like I am making something to share with the world when I crochet or sew. It’s what I will leave behind when I am gone.
Well, I am off to see if I can plan and then buy some meals for the next week or if my brain will shut down and I just sit here and crochet. Wish me luck!